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December 08, 2006

Pwned!

It's so great to be back home!!! I think all the days of constantly being engaged with co-workers - with no real personal or down time - really wore on my introvertedness. During one of the group activities today, I think I had a near anxiety attack and had to leave the room - all the voices and people around me were just driving me crazy! =/

I don't rememeber ever reacting like that before... I had to spend a few minutes outside by myself just staring into the ocean (or bay, I suppose) and praying... It helps when staying at a place like the Beach House!

Afterwards, I felt recharged and went back in to apologize to my teammates for ditching them like that. =)
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After the training finally ended, I rushed down to a friend's home to hear testimony from a missionary (from a certain "creative access" country... if you know me, you know which country ;)). Definitely a huge blessing and privilege to hear how God's working in that country! The night also gave me the opportunity to connect with key people involved with missions to this country, which was cool in itself!

But somehow, unexpectedly... I felt that I was woefully inadequate and unprepared to serve in that country. Which saddened me a lot, and compelled me to pray for forgiveness and to re-focus my life on following God.

Lord God, help keep my eyes focused on you! Humble and teach me your ways... move me into action... draw me to my knees in prayer, and break my heart with the things that break your heart! Lord, please reveal how you desire for me to serve you!

Posted by stevelee at December 8, 2006 12:56 AM

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