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November 23, 2005

Gotta be me

While chatting with another engineer about dSLRs (digital SLR cameras), another co-worker invited himself into the conversation and offered his opinionated feedback in a rather condescending way. My co-worker (who's much older, has children, and is a very nice guy) shifted the conversation to the XBox 360.

At this point, the 3rd co-worker caustically commented: "I don't care about the xbox. Games are for kids."

It seems that I've been encountering a number of people who refuse to accept or understand people with a different lifestyle from their own. While hanging out with some Christians, I hinted at some past experiences... to which one of the guys responded almost mockingly towards.

I didn't get offended... but it indicated that this particular person wasn't ready to handle me sharing more explicit experiences or details. Sadly, it's this kind of attitude that encourages many "Sunday Christians" to keep up a front of "everything is A-OK, God is great, and so is my life!"

This and the video game "incident" reaffirmed that I have to stay true to myself (as dorky/geeky as that may be!) and my beliefs, and not change that simply to conform to the "mainstream." Or as far as dating is concerned, not "settling" for someone who doesn't share the same spiritual convictions. Something which has become increasingly tempting lately!

All I know is: all these things require lots of prayer over...

I've been processing many insights and issues lately - involving family, myself and past experiences, my faith and role in God's kingdom. God blesses (or curses, depending on your viewpoint) us with certain experiences for a specific purpose - whether it be learning more about ourselves, God, and/or how to bless others through our own experiences.

I experienced depression, suicide, family problems, unsafe sex, among a host of other things... by God's grace, I'm better able to understand and encourage those who struggle with these issues, and perhaps avoid making the same mistakes.

I'm not saying I regret anything - everything, bad or good, is an experience to learn and grow from. I know there are others out there who have suffered so much more than I have, but view their own lives as a living hell or as abandoned by God. But when I read/hear about their lives, I see a life that is so vibrant and powerful - a life that can be used powerfully by God.

Posted by stevelee at 12:27 AM | Comments (1)

November 02, 2005

As long as you love me...

Video spoof of Backstreet Boys' "As Long As You Love Me"
(For more videos by these 2, check out this link)

Haha, watching that video brought back bittersweet memories of China... My class decided to sing and do a choreographed dance to this song for the closing ceremony, and I got suckered into playing the part of Nick Carter. The sound system broke while the song played, so we could only hear the instrumental part... so I had to pretty much sing the entire song! Hahaha... man, I'm not sure if I should laugh or cry! ;p

I do miss my students though...=/

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