When I first came to Alliance church about two years ago, I remember the joy and awe I felt: of God's timing in relating Pastor Wayne's messages to my struggles, of the love and encouragement I felt from the community. I also remember feeling completely unworthy of God's grace and of calling myself a "Christian."

"How could God possibly love and forgive a sinner like me, who turned his back on Him?"

Somewhere along the line, my feelings changed. I felt like I was maturing in my faith -- I became more sensitive to the Great Commission and the needs of others, I made the commitment to confess my hidden sins and live a life pleasing in God's eyes, I took my quiet time more seriously. But somehow, it didn't quite feel right; I felt (false?) contentment, but not peace... I lacked joy in the Lord.

Pastor Wayne told me once that I had to seek contentment in God. As I progressed through Masterlife, I finally realized -- admitted to myself -- that I wasn't seeking contentment in God, but tried finding it through my work and other selfish desires.

As I reflected upon these thoughts, especially on not feeling joy or fulfillment, God led me to Psalms 51 and Ephesians 4:22-32. Suddenly, it all made sense... in my pride, I lost sight of the sinner that I was and of depending upon God in all things.

So after all this, I have to say: "Yes, Masterlife has transformed my life." =)

Please keep me in your prayers: that I continue to learn humility, that I seek contentment and place complete faith in the Lord, and that I remain dedicated to studying and reflecting on God's word.

Thanks all for reading this long email and your prayers! =)