Speaking of change... I really don't know what my identity is anymore. In the past, if nothing else, I could always be described by my smile, and by my "sweet, caring personality." (not my words! hehe) I had many close female friends, but not many close guy friends. Back then, I really didn't know which guys I could/would ask to be my groomsmen. I always had felt more comfortable talking to girls than guys.

Fast forward to today... my smile seems more forced at work, and I honestly don't know if I could describe myself as sweet and caring. Sure, I still care and think about my friends... but it feels like I'm not as willing to go that extra mile anymore? I now have a bunch of good guy friends -- in fact, I now feel more comfortable hanging around with the guys than girls.

Hopefully it's just due to my tiredness, but I've been feeling more apathetic these days.

Yet, it seems like I "emotionally/mentally awaken" more intensely than ever when I talk with people, and hear about their problems/concerns - whether I've known them all my life or just recently. Like in my last entry, I felt sad and concerned after reading through the xangas of some people from church... or upon learning that my co-worker's wife underwent surgery to remove a benign tumor... Perhaps I have an inherent need to nurture and care for others?