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November 06, 2004
New Beginnings
Ahhh, it's been a while since I had the chance to sit down and write an entry. =)
If two words (besides busy) could describe my life these past few months, they would be "purpose-driven" and "growth." On that note, it's interesting to see that a number of people I know have been reading Purpose-Driven Life recently. (If you guys are interested in delving deeper and finding more material to reflect/discuss, I also recommend checking out the Purpose-Driven Life journal)
God has just blessed me so much recently, and I truly am thankful for all the lessons I've learned -- both through the good and hard times. I find that the more I surrender myself to His will, the more I recognize God's hand in my journey, and the greater my desire to serve Him faithfully.
First of all, I got a new job. =) I'm really excited about the opportunity -- the people seem cool, the company is the market leader and doing extremely well, and I'll be developing with some cool, cutting edge technology... and have a great opportunity to learn and grow with the company. =)
But beyond the job itself, I stand (well, sit ;)) in awe of God's timing and providence. Over the past few years, I've stressed and felt depressed by burdens such as financial debt, and feelings of being behind my peers. Many times, I felt like taking my own life... because it seemed so bad. And even when I got this job, I got so caught up in salary negotiation and such that I lost sight of the blessing. Yet, I realize now that God's been telling me to just trust and seek Him first... and that all else will be taken care of. Eventually, I stopped worrying about making all these comparisons and desires... and now, in virtually one fell swoop, all of that is taken care of!
The timing of everything couldn't be any better either. =) I leave for Asia tomorrow morning, and it feels damn good to have everything settled before leaving!
Saying good-bye to the folks at my former employer wasn't as hard as I feared it might be. A bunch of us went to Hukilau the night before for some food and drinks to celebrate a bunch of us getting new jobs... it was cool to hang outside of work, and seemed like everyone had fun. =) Thankfully, on my last day, we celebrated the birthday of one of the executive directors, so we had a lot of alcohol in the office, which made the last few hours more festive. =) In between rounds of Guiness and champagne, I had a chance to say my good-byes and even strike up conversations with people whom I would like to stay in touch with. I'll miss the bunch of people I worked with. =)
Going back to the theme of growth and purpose-driven life... I've renewed my committment to sanctify myself. There were certain vices which controlled my life... and so I finally threw all that trash out and am ready to begin with a clean slate. By that symbolic/real act, I no longer have any skeletons hiding in my closet. I know I engaged in certain actions in the past hurtful to God, and can never take that back -- nor will I try to deny my past, but living a life for God doesn't mean that I am faultless... it means I recognize and confess my mistakes, and truly desire to change for the better. For God.
Don't worry... I'm not going to turn all prudish or something. Haha. I'll still be the same trashtruth-talking guy who loves laughing (at other's expense? ;)) and having fun. =) I just have a greater appreciation of who I am, who I serve, and the lines I will not cross.
Posted by stevelee at November 6, 2004 04:40 PM
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Yikes, who would enjoy double dating with all that chemistry pressure! Enjoy your holiday!
Posted by: mare at November 7, 2004 04:17 AM
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