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June 15, 2004
A change in plans...
I wondered whether it was worth writing about my Sunday... so once Will asked how come I didn't show up to the Fanime staff picnic, figured why not? You guys are all used to my boring entries anyway! Hehe. =P
So Sunday, I was all set for the picnic... I had my rolls of spam musubi (in case anyone's curious, I ended up lining the bottom of the serving platter with a mix of seaweed and other greens and arranged the musubi 3/4 propped up.. if that makes sense =P) and driving directions! But then, during Alliance Cafe one of the high school girls told me that she had a piano recital that afternoon and invited me to attend.
I know this is going to sound really cheesy and melodramatic (then again, isn't that how I normally sound? ^^;), but bear with me... just as I was about to respond that I had a picnic to attend, I looked up at her, and this... rush of feelings and thoughts stormed past me. Hard to describe it, but it felt like I was at a crossroads of sorts... I don't know her too well, but there are moments when I engage her in conversation, I see this unmistakable sadness and sometimes lonliness in her eyes... I recognize the feelings, and it makes me determined to keep an extra careful eye out for her... I refuse to let her slip through the cracks. Unbeknownst to her, she became my secret lil sis... I "adopted" 2 girls as my secret lil sisses, hehe.
But I digress... I give her a weak response: "I'll try to make it..." but I guess it's obvious to both of us that I was being pretty non-committal. After all, I still wanted to attend the picnic... and if you know me, then you know that I hate strongly dislike it when my plans/schedules change.
The selfish part of me wanted to attend the picnic, but I already knew that the right thing would be to go support her... and to make an already long story shorter, I ended up staying. And boy, was she pleasantly surprised to see me there! =) That was one of the rare times where I completely changed my plans... and had no regrets, whatsoever.
I also ended up staying for choir practice... I was really nervous about being there... I mean, who was I -- with my weak voice and all -- to sing with these people who actually had real talent?! But, just like with the piano recital, I felt a higher calling... I wanted to do this, and I knew it was the right thing to do. The guys there couldn't have made me feel more welcome or comfortable... I must've done a horrible job hiding my "deer in headlights" feelings, hehe. =P
After testing my range, the choir director determined that I was a baritone/tenor... with tenor sounding slightly more natural for me... so, I'm now a part of the church choir! =)
For a while now, I felt God calling me back to music... to use the gifts He's blessed me with -- as humble as they may be -- and, well... here I am. =)
After the recital, which took place after choir practice, I returned to church for an ordination ceremony. I took a few more pictures there and chatted for a little bit before leaving... but even during this time, I... feel that God's set more of His plans for me in motion... What exactly, I'm not sure of yet... it'll all be revealed in due time. =)
Ya know.. one definite advantage of my plans changing, is that I have a whole helluva lot of spam musubi for myself to share! *pats belly proudly*
Posted by stevelee at June 15, 2004 03:29 AM
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You really need to give yourself more credit than you do. As for the presentation, yum! Now, I'm craving seaweed salad.
Posted by: mare at June 15, 2004 11:31 AM
Make a joyful noise! =o) I actually totally know how you feel! I've "adopted" a few lil sibs. of my own, without them knowing of course. I feel that God has given me a sense of purpose for having crossed paths with these lil middle and high school kids that need a lil extra watching-out for or support. Glad to be of service as a BiG SiS and serving Him at the same time! We shall chat soon! I'm almost DONE! (This Thursday to be exact!)
Posted by: JJ at June 16, 2004 12:35 AM
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